Asking For Help

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Past, Present, Future Tarot Spread
Sometimes whenever I feel stuck and I need a better examination of myself I play around with the tarot cards in hope for getting a better idea to assess the problem. Lately I have been going through drastic emotional changes. One second I was very optimistic and full of love. If you had a problem I would not mind listening and find a safe way to guide you to your desired destination.

Unfortunately, when my positive vibes went away I became pessimistic and very depressed. Wanting to let someone in was the last thing I wanted to do, especially if it requires me to let down my guard and open up. For long periods of time I did, and still do, have trouble sharing my thoughts, concerns, and emotions with my best friend whom is also my significant other. Even right now as I type away, I feel as though since my plate full of so many problems, any progress I’m trying to make isn’t working in my favor. So what now?

Simple, I figure out what ingredient I am missing within my recipe of life.

That’s where the tarot cards and an open mind comes in. I understand that tarot readings are not concrete, serving an ambiguous message to the public, but with an open mind it can be a helpful tool. So I chose the past, present, and future spread and began shuffling my cards. Once I chose my three cards, I observed each picture closely and analyzed the uniqueness behind all of them.

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Past Card: Eight of Swords

Introduction: When the 8 of Swords appears, you may be holding yourself back because you fear moving into the future, or because you are wary of getting hurt by a new situation, or maybe for no reason at all. Think through what it is that you’re afraid of. The truth of the situations are probably much less frightening than your mind is making it out to be.

General: In general, the 8 tells us that we must be open to defeat in order to ever possibly win. Do not fear the unknown; many blessings reside for you there. Examine your thoughts, speech, and behavior for negativity and know that what you say and do and the choices that you make affect the outcomes in your life. If you need help managing and dealing with your fears, ask for it.

Eight of Swords Interpretation

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Present Card: Reversed King of Wands

Introduction: The King of Wands reversed can signify a man who has been through a lot in his life, and as a result, he typically is warm, kind, and understanding toward others. He himself is likely to have a great deal of energy, but as he has matured, he has begun to understand that not everyone can match his pace. When the card does not signify a literal person in your life, it refers to feeling energetic and also to a tendency toward being lenient with others. If this is in regard to your children, think carefully whether leniency is the best response to them.

General: In general the King of Wands reversed is a positive card. People around you are likely to be kind, tolerant, and understanding. You should have more than enough energy to get what you need to do accomplished. Again, a light haired, older man may play an important and helpful role in your life.

Reversed King of Wands Interpretation

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Future Card: Reversed Five of Pentacles

Introduction: The 5 of Pentacles reversed can point to a time when you are about to move from feeling not very secure into feeling safer. Whether it’s because you’ve realized the time has come to reach out to others, or because you are beginning to see some concrete new prospects, this is a very good thing.

General: In general, the reversed 5 of Pentacles says that in the recent past you may have felt “left out in the cold,” as though everyone but you had everything made in the shade – but that feeling is passing. Your confidence should be beginning to renew now. Trust any reasons you’re feeling for being upbeat.

Reversed Five of Pentacles Interpretation

After going through each card I have noticed that there will be progress made. However, to ensure that progress will be made I must first do one thing. Usually that one thing, asking for help, is very challenging for me because I normally don’t do it. I have a particular mentality instilled within me that if I can do anything once I set my mind to it then I don’t need help. Asking for assistance shows weakness and lack of being independent, so I need to find a way to fix my own problems.

It took me a very long time to ask someone for help, even if they couldn’t physically help me. I was experiencing an interesting level of depression and doubt; I constantly thought about relapsing after making so much progress and fighting the urge on my own. When I brought it to his attention, he immediately reminded me how confident I am, and that my words are just as beautiful as my emotions. After mentioning that to me, not only did I smile, but I started to come to and try to find another way to fix myself– even if it’s little progress.

I’m still not fully happy because I’m slowly letting go of my past and is seeking closure, but the feeling of relief is there. I’m relived that my best friend, and significant other, took the time out of his day to understand why I’m such a way and talk to me with patience and love. My daughter, though she can’t talk just yet, alone is a constant reminder of why I chose to love more than waste time being hateful and full of spite. The temptation is there, I’m not going to hide that matter of fact, towards several cowardly individuals, but at the end of the day there’s no point in doing so. Because of their carelessness I found better, and I’m growing up more.

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